Patience

Patience is defined as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like. But, what happens when after 31 years of turning the other cheek, taking someone elses bullshit and listening to incompetence that calls themselves being in charge of someone has reached it's peak in my life. I just wish I could figure out why at times i just want to destroy everything in my path. There is nothing that anyone can do to calm this down. The only person that I would talk to about this is over 4000 miles away and right now she has to sleep. What the fuck am I supposed to do, others would say give it to God and let him handle it, did that when i was a kid and it didn't work. Tried it again when i was an adult in a shitty marriage and all i got for that was my ass kicked both physically and mentally. So with me there is no such thing as three strikes and your out. I mean come on, you took my great grand father from me, you took my brother from me and you took a great leader, you took all these soldiers from their families and loved one's. How am i supposed to believe in a man that would do something like this. But, fuck it i guess. I would rather just like always, just say fuck it, and fuck the world cause it always fucks me.

being hoe'ed out to everyone

This is some baby back bullshit, i hate being good at something cause every time i get picked to drive that fucking forklift. I hate this shit, everytime they see other's driving it but as soon as there is work to be done, "Sgt. Wilborn can you drive the forklift for us. Man fuck this place, everyone in it and the STALLION that is rode in on.

The start of something...

Well we started today with our "mission's" Being on this type of mission really sucks cause you are going to have soooo much down time that you are going to to crazy. We have a PL that is fresh so he has to learn the way to do things and then we have a chain of command that doesn't want to listen to what input we have on certain subjects. Then of course they don't want to make life easy for us they want to make things hard and pointless. I can't wait to go to the last formation and then say good bye to 2-8. I also missed my anniversary of being in the military. I have been doing this now for 13 years. That is an accomplishment for me cause it is the first thing that I have stuck with for such a long time. So hooray for me on that. Should have a nice pay check on this one. Well, time for radio guard. Two hours of sitting around and doing nothing.

When will the madness end???

I am soooooo fucking tired, not only physically but mentally. This place just drains it all out of you. I mean it is now 19:22 and we have to go outside and do fucking sand bags. I mean when is the madness going to end? Soldiers are just expendable items to these people not human's. The army has changed soo much over time and i guess it is you can either adapt and over come or get the hell out of the way. Only single digit years and i am done with this bullshit. good bye army hello police force. at least there i know that i will be serving a greater purpose.

Information being passed down

What the hell happened to the military? In the past I always got information from the main source. Now that I am the senior E5 in the platoon, I am getting information from younger E5's. I mean I understand they need to learn., but the senior leader should be there with him while he is putting it out. I know I see the look on everyone's faces when he is putting things out that came from the senior leader. We trust the person, but when they say it like they are the hottest thing since sliced bread they sound a little bit arrogant. I'm just sayin...

Day 3-Jokes and jackass's

Why must grown ass people keep making jokes. I am surrounded by a bunch of fucking kids. We are in a dangerous area and they think that hitting the side of my room and expecting me to run out scared they have another thing coming. Then there was some miss communication. I sat in the truck and feel asleep, when I woke up the PSG was gone and everyone was wondering what happened to him. I mean if he had a meeting then i understand, if there was an emergency i understand, but to just up and leave. That is poor leadership. And then the officers, never have i seen so many officers that run the show. I thought NCO's run this ship not the officers. But, again this is not before the turn of the century. The leadership now vs. the leadership back then was totally different. We were standing there and the LT was standing there explaining what was going on. Then when I took the lead and asked him, "Hey sir do we need the soldiers?" He said, "no" Then later after everything was done people are asking who let the soldiers go? I mean really can't you freaking people get your heads out of the four point of the stallion contact and think before you speak. But, that is common since thinking and that is punishable under the UCMJ. I ask again, "When will the lambs stop screaming?"