Patience

Patience is defined as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like. But, what happens when after 31 years of turning the other cheek, taking someone elses bullshit and listening to incompetence that calls themselves being in charge of someone has reached it's peak in my life. I just wish I could figure out why at times i just want to destroy everything in my path. There is nothing that anyone can do to calm this down. The only person that I would talk to about this is over 4000 miles away and right now she has to sleep. What the fuck am I supposed to do, others would say give it to God and let him handle it, did that when i was a kid and it didn't work. Tried it again when i was an adult in a shitty marriage and all i got for that was my ass kicked both physically and mentally. So with me there is no such thing as three strikes and your out. I mean come on, you took my great grand father from me, you took my brother from me and you took a great leader, you took all these soldiers from their families and loved one's. How am i supposed to believe in a man that would do something like this. But, fuck it i guess. I would rather just like always, just say fuck it, and fuck the world cause it always fucks me.